oooo..i certainly very much miss my shepherd!! ya, she's out holidaying in Bali and i warn her not to bing a balinese guy bac!!! hahazx..jkjk///well, there is reali an amazingly a missing square thingy feel alike!! hahhs..it's not a nice feeling when during the weekdays, i would jux pick up my phone and dial her no. and start.... disturbing and crapping with her!!! its reali amusing to irritate her!!! TRY IT!! HAhazx...welll, hope she'd enjoy herself  over at another mids!! =D

missed ya dearly!!!

oh mann..i'm reali DEAD by now!! lyk sooooooo many things lining up as if awaiting my signature to be pen on!! i never knew painting would be that tiring!! let me give you alittle description of the situation that i'm in now!!! torn and numb fingers, stained hands and feet and HAIR, cuts on fingers/legs etc etc. and for sure, i'm dead tired!! i remb on mon, omw to shepherd my sheep, i jux felt lyk a female "blangah"!!!! hahahahazx..alrights, credits to you who is reading this little whining of mine!! poor thing!! anw, just alittle suggestion to nippon, dulux paint etc. can they lyk come up with a paint where you jux need to paint one layer will do?? so that there isn't a need for people to wait for the wall to dry and then paint another layer on it?? i felt uncomfortable having the need to paint so many layers!!!

rite!!! I WANT TO SINCERELY THANK THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE KEPT ME IN PRAYER FOR THE FOOD POISONING INCIDENT!!!!! GOSH!!!!!!!! I REALLY REALLY REALLY THANK YOU GUYS FROM THE SO DEEP DEEP DEEP VALLEY OF MY HEART!!!!! THANK YOU!!!!!! initially, it is suppose to be kept in the dark..but then it had turn out to be a world declaration kinda thingy!!!!!!!! goodness gracious!!!! thkx for those heart warming msgs!!! thoughout the whole day resting and half paralyse, i literally feel that half of my life is wasted away, then i felt God laughing and scolding me!! how sad can this be when u r sick rite? but i felt really thankful to have the time to reflect on my nature of being too activistic!!! rest is kinda never in my dictionary..wads more sleeping??!! to me, the only time i consider realie my rest is to be able to swim my laps in the pool!!! that's the tym when i ruminates too!!! images of me swimming filled my mind..thn i heard this question from God when i'm paralysed on bed, is this the only situation where i can put you in to really a good rest?? haahs..mann!! i guess, this struck me real hard..and i thought i'm looking too old for my age rite!!! as i read up,i realise that sufficient amount of sleep and rest would be able to make me look younger=D

[for those in the crossroads of life: the best way to predict your future is to create it with God]

how amazing God is when He sends so many reminders and watchmen over regina's life!!!!

i am reflecting over what had happen in just these few days..and it sum up to an emerging blinded eyes of mine to becoming one of viewing God's perfect plan...He showed me how different leader's over my life works!!

First up JENCY TAN: the situation at this hongkong cafe in bugis stunned me..bth hungry beings were so ready to sit dwn and order aft a long day whn her sheep(me) realises that her hp is nowhere insight..aft awhile of calling, she stood up and forgo the delight of getting ready to order and decided to hlp me search for it...she called and called, never give up..and thn finally return an unknown miss call only to realise that the call is from the hongkong cafe and that my hp is with them..thk God for her fluent chinese that enables me to retrieve back my hp!! i bet i'll fail when i communicate with the other party!!!

2nd..DANIEL LEOW: through singing prac, i felt his sense of the firmness and stand of punctuality!!! he is oso known as the most "spiiritual worship leader?" weel heard it else where..he never fails to affirm and assure people!! and he never fails to have long prayers before,during,after singing prac..with him, there's always a time where u commune with God..though this are all the usual him..but it never allow me to get sick or tired of it..rather, each time is a time of refreshment!! and....you really really have a whole lot of things to learn from him!!!!!!

3rd...LIM DAIXUANN: through her, iim not only learning singing techniques...but fri singing prac, her action showed me what TRUE WORSHIP means!! she once told me that "though it all" is a song that meant alot to her..i think its 2 wks ago that she told me..and this week, this song was chose!! during singing prac..i saw her tearing and then i've truly know why for the past 2wks she has been teaching me to mean every word that i sing!!! i think i did it!!!wow...happy happy!!!

4th...PHILOTHEA!!! during the morning briefing...she passed around one piece of hand written paper to all of us...and that verse just spoke to me!!! when i receive that piece of paper, i learn that it takes spiritual preparation and even that extramile to just conduct a simple 10min briefing!!!!

Today i had an interesting conversation with God..then i felt like i am that person in the story of the footprints! but mine is however a little different! i felt as if i had a retreat of seemingly the end of any typical business down town where at the end of the day, a long long receipt stating the sales of the whole day just appeared..this receipt is definitely much different! its a receipt from God, stating my FAITHFULNESS in serving in the kingdom! fortunate for me, God smiled to me!! a sense of gladness filled my heart and definitely, i thought i let out a sigh..laughs* following it was an assurance from God that He'll give me more..and when He gives me more, i have to face more things! being an activistic pathway person, truthfully, i kind of feel nothing, but then i heard a loud warning from God that it's gona be real tough! ok, then i kind of saw myself stumbling!

when God continues with doing some discerning work in my heart, i felt strongly for this certain individuals that is going to read this entry to the very end that when God prints the receipt out for you, unfortunately there wasn't a smile that had Him carried on His face. Think with me, if you had great dreams and vision for the kingdom for God, it'll definitely be things that is really big!! like, taking a whole country, continent, or some of you, even as big as the world for God!! if all these are the visions that you had receive from God, then start thinking of how faithful you are in being a follow-upper,shepherd,pioneerer,leader,etc etc. take me for example, i had a total of 6 sheeps to take care of, and my vision is to rise up a whole new generation of youths for God..by then, God is not just gona plc 6 or 10 people under my care right? it's gona be 60 000..ten and hundreds of thousands of people under my care! so when i was reflecting upon it, if i can't even stay faithful to this 6 sheeps of mine, that what makes me think that i'm gona do great things for God?!! some of you are just merely taking care of 1-2sheeps..4-5??? if even 1 or 2 sheeps under your care should perish, then i seriously think you should start pondering over the level of your faithfulness!! i think when this is just the start of the year 2009, i'm sure many of us have already set our resolutions..some may set being a cl/ul..etc. but come to think of it, are you sure, very sure that you can stay faithful to all 7 or more of your cg member?? how sure are you?? if 1 or 2 sheeps is a problem for you, what makes you think God will use you further?? i think it's time to change the resolutions that you've set to something like asking God to mould your hearts so that you can learn to be FAITHFUL with the little that you have=D

i hope this encourages you to reflect and have a long chat with God soon!!  [jesus said,"in my father's house are many rooms;if it were not so, i would have told you i am going there to prepare a place for you, and if i go and prepare a place for you, i will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where i am."-john14:2-3]

i guessed...a creation pathway wannabe!! =D i always awe in amazement whn ppl of the creation pathway wowed at the things they see in s'pore..however, recently i'm kinda dying to hit the woods(does s'por even has one??) to act as if i'm in a solitude state..WOW..how cool can this be??!! i guessed, i've truly found the word to describe me!!!

p.s..my beloved.. turn the world around=D where's my iceberg?